What Becoming a First Time Mom Actually Looks Like

  Becoming a first time mom is one of the most exhilarating, life-altering experiences, and I am in the throes of it. My son, Ben, finally arrived at 41 weeks after 17 hours of labor. Still with much shock and amazement I can utter the words, I am someone’s mother. Along with this comes so many…

What the last few days of pregnancy are like

I am 39 1/2 weeks pregnant. I know there are many women who go over their due dates by a week or even two, and bless those brave souls because if I go one day past my due date I am going to scream. I really mean it when I say that my pregnancy wasn’t…

The Weather Reminded Me

Weather is always a good external way to see some change. It’s been so beautiful out the past few days; temperatures in the mid 70’s, birds chirping all day, the sun sticking around well past six. The physical change is more obvious than the small voices inside our heads that we tend to ignore; the…

Being a Parent Means Letting Go

There are a lot of things pregnancy prepares you for, they say; sleepless nights, solo bathroom experiences, whole blocks of time to yourself…
But I think the biggest of them all is letting go.

The Time of My Life

I had never seen Dirty Dancing before I met Nadia. Just the name alone made it feel taboo. Dirty Dancing. I was eight and when Nadia asked her mother if we could watch it she picked up the video tape and said “Oooo, Dirty Dancing? Very sexy,” and took Nadia’s hand and twirled her around…

Grandpa’s Song

Grandpa sat in his wheelchair in a line of about ten other elderly men, all dressed in white shirts. The others wore t-shirts, but I recognized Grandpa’s dressier shirt he got from Mexico. Their chairs were angled inward towards the center, where two men played acoustic guitar, songs by artists that everyone knew like Stevie…

Offend someone today

I live my life more or less the way I want to. I cannot blame or reward anyone else for my circumstances. I’ve made every decision, even if it isn’t conscious or without persuasion at the time. They were all my little decision-babies. I went to school for six years after high school. I found…

Answering your own call

I was house-sitting for my parents a few years ago when I had a really disturbing dream. I was still single and they were on vacation and needed to make sure the house wasn’t so cold that our cat, Buster, wouldn’t end up as a fuzzy lollipop. Also to feed him. I had just ended…